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I can f*ck who I want by guest writer Blaize-from her memoir

I just had this ah ha moment! I am free! For the first time in my life I am debt free, but it’s bigger than that.
I truly am traveling my own road.  Going my own way.  If anyone wants to join along the way, that’s great, and if they don’t I still keep going.  It’s such a feeling of  liberation.  I can come and go as I please, and for the first time in my life I have financial security.
I tell the truth, because I learned a long time ago if you lie, lies always come up and bite you in the ass.  I also know when I am being lied too.  If it works for any of you to lie, to hide, good luck to you, but for me, letting it hang out works for me.  Yes, sometimes I am vulnerable, and I have this big, open heart that gets hurt, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.  Many folks along the way adore my open heart, and some take advantage of it, but they don’t last too long in my life.
I am not tied down by marriage.  I can fuck who I want, when I want, and I have some great friends.  Friends who don’t lie to me, who stand by me, support me and tell me the truth when it needs to be told.
I still believe in magic and much magic happens in my life.  I have what I call “it”.  It’s that mystery of aliveness and always curious about the next adventure happening.  I don’t control my life or other people’s lives, so I never know what’s going to happen next.  It’s exciting and scary at the same time.
Again, it’s this feeling of freedom within me.  I don’t have to go on a trip to feel the freedom, I don’t have to earn a million dollars to feel the freedom.  I just have to be the most authentic human being I can be, and that’s where the freedom is. Truly being who i am.
People who stay in my life feel safe and secure around me, because they know I am being real with them.  They don’t have to impress me and if they try, it just doesn’t work because I can see through the bullshit.  They know it and I know it.
I have learned I am so grateful about being alive, so alive, that I can appreciate the mystery and adventure of my life and share it.
And love as though it were your last day on earth.  Life is way too short to bullshit if your lucky enough to have love come into your life.
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